I've been meaning to start a blog for a very long time. I'm probably not the only one. 'Starting a blog' seems to be one of those things on everyone's generic to-do list-shoved somewhere near the bottom, in between organising your sock-drawer and buying new stationery. I don't know why it's taken me so long to get around to it; I like words, and should therefore view any opportunity to write as a source of pleasure. Perhaps, in the middle of this lazy, lingering summer holiday I'm having, it all seems too much like hard work. Or perhaps I haven't, until now, felt I've got anything worth saying. Or maybe it's just that I haven't been in the right mood or place to write, until this very moment in time. Maybe that makes this moment significant. Or it might mean nothing at all.
Either way, I'm procrastinating now without any sense of purpose, and have diverted from what I actually want to write about-which is not WHY I've started this blog, but WHAT I want it to be. I want to be looking ahead to the future, if you will, rather than over-analyzing my past, which is what I have been doing so far!
Firstly, I want this blog to be private. I'm not going to advertise it like I usually do with my social media, but keep it to myself. I'll share it when I want with who I want, if I want to. As a refuge to my private thoughts, it would seem foolish to brandish it around; that would simply make it an accident waiting to happen when it is misinterpreted by someone who I would rather didn't interpret it at all. I'm very happy though for people to come across it by accident; and whether they know me or not, I hope they enjoy it. I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't writing to some type of audience-I'd have started a diary if I wanted real privacy, let's face it!
I also want this blog to have no form of guilt attached to it. As an 18-year-old rambler, unable to master the art of writing concisely, I will admit now that what I write here will never be literary genius, or probably even remotely well-written. If, through the practice of writing everyday, my style and technique start to improve, it'll be a nice bonus; but I would rather the content of my blog, rather than the wording of it, to be its premier attraction.
Following on from this point, I hope at least a little of what I say here will be inspiring, funny, heartfelt, honest. I hope the reader, whoever he/she may be, can at least steal a little glimpse of what it's like to me-even if only for a milisecond. And I hope they can relate to whatever that is. We're all human beings, after all.
Whether I live up to the above expectations, which I alone place on myself, remains to be seen. But it's definitely worth giving it a go.
So, I'll start properly tomorrow. I've popped it my next blog entry onto the generic to-do list, in between buying new shoes and e-mailing distant relatives. Looks like it's had a promotion already.
